Intro

Hi.

And welcome.

I’m Lisa. I’m 38 years old. I’m single. And I don’t have a clue what love is.

I’m stumped by it, intrigued by it, drawn toward it, baffled by it, and incredibly fascinated by it. And I’m on a mission to find out what exactly love is.

I've been in relationships. A long term one, some medium length ones, and a few shorter ones. I’ve loved. I’ve definitely loved. It would have been a sad 38 years if I hadn’t. And I’ve definitely been loved. It’s wonderfully reassuring to know that. And to have felt that.

But I still don’t feel as though I know what love-love is. True love. Real love. The love. I’m assuming that I haven’t experienced it yet, because I would hope that I would have recognized it, if it had made an appearance at some point.

That kind of love remains a mystery to me. An elusive abstract concept which is constantly tapping me on the shoulder and arousing my curiosity. And as a result, I long to grasp it, to learn about it, as much as I possibly can.

I wouldn’t have gotten behind the wheel of a car without first learning how to drive. And certainly a heart is far more valuable, and far more vulnerable. And can take us on far more interesting journeys. So I’m here to learn. Theoretically. And hopefully practically too, since it wouldn’t be as much fun, knowing the fundamentals, without being able to test drive the theories.

So that’s my mission here. To learn about love.

Today is October 10th 2009. A date which has no significance. However, in exactly a year from now, it will be 10/10/10, which I think is very funky! And an ideal date to set as a love-goal. A date when I plan be love-wiser than I am now, and able to say “ooooooh, so that’s what it’s all about....”

It would be nice to say “in a year from now, I would like to have found true love”. But I know that love never happens on a schedule or within any kind of time frame. It just simply and suddenly happens, usually catching the people it happens to by surprise. That much, I know, from having seen others fall deeply and passionately and happily in love.

My goal is this: “In a year from now, I’d like to know what love is”. I’d love to understand it.

That’s what this blog will be about. My learning about love.

My love lessons.

I’m looking forward to it! :)

Lisa